Making the Most of Reality; The Internet and Online Friends

I've been a blogger since the days of Open Diary. Back when I was fourteen years old, I was angsty and misunderstood. I didn't know how to relate to the people I went to school with. I had over compensated my personality by obsessing over a band and found ways to willingly be obnoxious about this band. Part of the reason I was so misunderstood was because of my ability to connect with this band, this music, more than I was able to communicate to the people I knew. Instead I turned to online diaries to find people who understood. Over the past eleven years the people I've met online have been amazing, exhilarating and frustrating. I learned more through words than I would have through experience if only because I found my life lacking experience to begin with.

I think that this was both an amazing experience and a hindrance in the long run. I never really managed to figure out this whole "life" thing, at least not without being able to full immerse myself in people I couldn't see and characters of my own creation. I learned how to life within words, spark lives that would be ideal were they real. I connected deeply on levels I imagine may never have happened without the internet. Yet at the same time, those friendships I've acquired have required work that real life friendships require less of: the ability to continue to reconnect while experience remain mostly through a series of characters and words on a screen. I find myself wondering what would be different had they not happened. But I know I'd rather not have it any other way.

I'd like to take a moment to recognize all of those friends, whether we are still in touch or not. I wouldn't be this person I am today without you. And I certainly would not be creating any other blog, no matter how many times I've attempt the task at hand before. Here's to the nights we felt alive...

Penny Days, as a blog and as a reflection of my life, is about reality. It's about real experiences that reach your core. It's about me, and you taking that time to step away from typed words and friends who live miles away. It's about making the best out of what's here right now. It's about learning to be.


*italized lyric from Eve 6 - Here's To The Night